Lisa, 43

I'm 43 years and have been trying to have a baby for 3 years now. I've had 2 failed IUI's, 3 miscarriages (after getting pregnant on my own), and 3 failed IVF cycles with donor eggs. I'm very saddened by all of this. I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted.

I'm over $45,000 in credit card debt, hoping for a miracle to happen with no such luck. I got my last negative last week and have no donor eggs left. In order to proceed, I'd have to fork out another $15,000 for eggs. I'm so sad. No one understands the heartache and strength you need to endure this journey. I don't know what to do. I'm so tired of getting my hopes up spending time, money, and energy for nothing but empty arms. I'm trying to figure out what to do: spend more money (I can't even pay what I have spent already); switch RE's and hope there will be a different outcome; or just come to the realization I'm not going to get what I want and live with that choice. I guess I'll try to hope for the best and breathe, one second at a time. ​